Hinkey Chronicles

Tag: trauma & healing

  • Two Keys to Surviving a Breakup

    Two Keys to Surviving a Breakup

    Resources & Support

    Relationships are easy to enter, hard to maintain, and painful to leave. The first blush of interest and attraction fuels the passion that ultimately leads to commitment. In the midst of a relationship, many things can go wrong, from the failure to communicate or taking the other person for granted to infidelity or abuse. The breakup is heart wrenching for both parties, regardless of who initiated the breakup and when there is a valid reason to split.

    Whether you’re on the verge of breaking up, in the throes of separation, or recovering from heartbreak, it’s important to spend the time necessary to heal. The best thing you can do to help this process along involves finding the right support and resources.

    Books are Wonderful Resources

    Whether your goal is to mend a broken heart, win an ex back, or simply move on with your life, you can be sure that others have traveled the same path. A breakup can make you feel lost; it’s extremely helpful to rely on the advice and experiences of others to put you on the path to healing.

    For instance, if your significant other left you—and played the blame game in the process—it’s natural to feel unlovable and at fault.

    On the other hand, perhaps you contributed to the breakup of the relationship. Perhaps it didn’t express your appreciation and gratitude often, or you didn’t give your relationship the priority it deserved. It could be that, instead of tending to your relationship garden, both of you were busy doing other things while the weeds took over. If your heart tells you that your relationship is worth fighting for (not fighting over!), a book can help you navigate the waters of getting back together.

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    Support is essential.

    Few breakups happen overnight, so getting the support you need throughout the process is essential. When it comes to breaking up, help yourself by expressing your feelings and reaching out to others. Writing about your feelings, asking others to listen to you vent, seeking advice, and reading about the experiences of others are all tools that can help you mourn your loss, regain your sense of self, and move on with your life.

    Online Support and Resources

    A breakup is one of life’s most momentous events; the people who are closest to you are often not very objective. They may have their own agendas, pushing you toward one course of action or away from another; finally, they care too much to cause you any further pain.

    When you go online, though, you can find sites that provide a wealth of downloadable books and support-oriented discussion boards. Instant access to books can be a lifesaver, and discussing your situation and reading about those of others can give you the one-day-at-a-time approach that will see you through every stage of the breakup process. The best sites even have breakup blogs, where you can journal your thoughts and feelings and can read others’ stories.

    In conclusion, a breakup is extremely difficult, but you don’t have to go it alone. Find the online support and resources you need.

  • The Unseen Weight: Understanding and Managing Anxiety

    The Unseen Weight: Understanding and Managing Anxiety

    Understand Anxiety

    The word “anxiety” can trigger a tightening in the chest, a quickening of the breath. It’s a pervasive feeling, a silent epidemic impacting millions globally. However, understanding anxiety, recognizing its symptoms, and learning coping mechanisms is the first step towards reclaiming control and finding peace.

    Anxiety isn’t simply feeling worried or stressed. While stress is a response to a specific event, anxiety is a persistent feeling of unease, nervousness, and apprehension that can impact daily life. However, those who are not aware of what it is. I can see why it is perceived as feeling both worried and stressed.

    It manifests in a myriad of ways, both physically & emotionally. 

    Common symptoms:

    • Physical: heart racing, shortness of breath, sweating, trembling, muscle tension, fatigue, digestive problems, headaches, and difficulty sleeping.
    • Emotional: Feeling overwhelmed, irritable, restless, on edge, difficulty concentrating, and lastly experiencing recurring negative thoughts or worries.

    The causes of anxiety are complicated. Genetic predisposition, life experiences like trauma or significant stress, and environmental factors all play a role. Furthermore, underlying medical conditions can sometimes contribute to anxiety symptoms.

    Types of anxiety disorders exist, including:

    • Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD): Excessive worry & anxiety about various events or activities for at least six months.
    • Panic Disorder: Characterized by recurrent unexpected panic attacks, often accompanied by intense fear and even physical symptoms.
    • Social Anxiety Disorder (Social Phobia): Overwhelming fear in social situations.
    • Specific Phobias: Intense fear of a specific object or situation.
    • Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD): Develops after a traumatic event, which involves flashbacks, nightmares, and avoidance of reminders of the trauma.

    Managing Anxiety

    Fortunately, treatments are available. Therapy, particularly cognitive-behavioral therapy (CBT), is highly successful. CBT helps individuals identify and challenge negative thought patterns to develop coping mechanisms to manage anxiety. Medication, such as antidepressants & anti-anxiety medications, can also be beneficial, often used in conjunction with therapy.

    Beyond professional help, self-care strategies play a crucial role in managing anxiety.

     These include:

    • Regular Exercise: Physical activity releases endorphins, which results in mood-boosting effects.
    • Mindfulness and Meditation: Practicing mindfulness can help individuals be more aware of their thoughts as well as feelings without judgment.
    • Healthy Diet: Nourishing your body with a balanced diet can significantly impact mental well-being.
    • Sufficient Sleep: Aim for 7-9 hours of quality sleep each night.
    • Stress Management Techniques: Techniques like deep breathing exercises, progressive muscle relaxation, and yoga.
    • Social Support: Furthermore, connect with friends, family, or support groups that provide a sense of belonging and reduce feelings of isolation.

    Anxiety is a treatable condition. It’s essential to remember you are not alone, and help is available. If you are struggling with anxiety, reach out to a healthcare professional or mental health specialist. Taking the first step towards seeking support is a sign of strength and can lead to a more fulfilling and anxiety-free life.

  • A Life in the Shadows:

    A Life in the Shadows:

    Finding Myself Beyond Family, Love, & Work.

    Growing up, I always felt like an outsider in my own family. It was not just the usual sibling rivalries or parent-child disagreements—it was something deeper. I was different, and that difference made me an afterthought.

    On my dad’s side, being Mormon was the unspoken currency of love and acceptance, and I did not have it. I was never a part of their faith, which meant to me I was never fully part of them. Love felt conditional, as if I had to earn it in ways I never could. No matter what I did, it was never enough. 

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    The Family That Never Saw Me

    If my dad’s family made me feel like an outsider, my mom and sister made home feel like a battleground. Their narcissism turned every interaction into a power struggle. Affection was never freely given—it was a tool they used to control and manipulate. And in that dynamic, I was always the one left empty-handed.

    Birthdays and holidays weren’t days to celebrate; they were reminders. While others experienced warmth and connection, I felt distant. Christmas as well as thanksgiving were never magical nor comforting; and birthdays felt more like obligations than celebrations. I never expected much from those days, and somehow, they still managed to disappoint. As I got older, the gifts I got from them were more expensive as I felt they realized how they were and are making up for past mistakes. Demands as well, on what I wanted to do for those days were heavily pushed on me. 

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    Love That Left Scars

    If family set the foundation, relationships built the walls around me. Every relationship I have had seemed to follow the same destructive pattern—either I was the one causing damage, or I was the one picking up the pieces. It was never healthy, never fulfilling.

    I wanted love but love always felt just out of reach. Maybe I was drawn to broken people, or maybe broken people were drawn to me. Either way, the outcome was the same: misunderstandings, toxicity, and heartache. Love felt like a battle, and I was left wounded. That alone made me feel like a mechanic for the person to repair them for the next one. 

    A Career Without a Future

    Work should have been my escape, a place where effort led to success, where I could prove myself. But even there, I found myself stuck. While reaching for an opportunity, it was taken away before I could grasp it.

    I worked hard. I showed up. I gave my best. Unfortunately, it was never enough. Promotions passed me by, recognition never came, and I felt like I was always starting over, no matter how much experience I gained. The quiet firing led to making work miserable whereas, I had to stop my tasks to finish other individual’s tasks. The days and hours I worked got more and more distant. Not really a livable wage.

    Finding Myself in the Wreckage

    I won’t tie this story up with a neat little bow because life isn’t like that. I’m still figuring things out. I still have wounds that have not fully healed. But what I do know is this: I am more than what I have been through.

    I may never have had the family I wanted, the love I needed, or the career I dreamed of. But I have myself. And for the first time, I am learning that maybe, just maybe, that’s enough. I find myself looking into therapy but unsure of how I should go about it. It makes me nervous thinking about the process of it.